Honestly, I just feel like writing today. Life has been so crazy, maybe you can relate. I mean yeah, its the holiday season in the midst of COVID so I’m pretty sure everyone is losing their marbles. (Please assure me its not just me).
I just wanted to hop on and talk about life for a sec. I have been on this sort of self-finding journey. I’m in this season of motherhood. You guys, it’s HARD. I have never given SO much of myself before. Ive mentioned that it has been such a struggle for me to find life outside of my kids. Recently I’ve come to this grand realization that I just have to do the best I can do. Seems pretty obvious but its stressful. I have been working on spending more time with God in bible study, trying to eat better, workout, go to work, keep up with my appearance. On top of the general household bs (laundry, dishes). I have goals, ok. Like do our kids just not get that we actual humans with goals outside of making play dates and feeding them all organic foods lol?! I would like to learn scripture, maybe read a book, grow my vocabulary- literally I can’t even remember to say “Hey, Siri. What’s the word of the day” on the Webster app. It takes 3 seconds. Why can’t I accomplish this?! So I’ve been praying because I want to have my ish together, Lord.
I’m a problem solver. I can’t just leave the problem alone and accept this is just how it is because I do think its still important to strive to be the best version of yourself… as much as you can. So I do what I can and I refuse to feel guilty when I can’t. I don’t set a goal to workout every day because its just not going to happen. My kids are up my ass, okay. Like super far up there. So I have concluded that the solution is to set general goals. For example, I say I’m gonna try to work out 3 days for 30 minutes. I don’t pre-determine what 3 days because who knows what days my kids will actually nap or behave for 30 minutes straight? So I do what I can when I can. No, I don’t accept the “Well I deserve to watch my show if I have 30 free minutes”. It’s not that I don’t deserve to watch my show because trust me, I do, and so do you. BUT I also have these goals. I have to get my ass up and do them. Because if my ass meets to couch I’m not gonna get up.
So Mamas, I hope I have related to you in this rambling. It’s all very lighthearted. I hope I have maybe encouraged you or made you feel like you aren’t alone.
Hello My Beauties!
I’m coming at you guys with some personal ishhh today. As I’ve said before above all else I want to glorify God and keep it real with ya. It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog post but it’s been really heavy on my heart that I start again. Since I’ve written last I have had another baby boy, Nolan. And like everyone else I’ve just been trying to survive day to day through a worldwide pandemic. Ya know pretty boring stuff. HAHA.
So let’s get down to the personal stuff. You guys, I have been on the struggle bus lately. You know when you’re just kind of going through the motions of life hoping that your calling or purpose is just going to fall in your lap? Yeah, that’s what I’ve been doing for at least a year. Specifically? Um, let’s see… Besides just juggling life with 3 kids, a husband deployed half the time, housework etc. I have graduated college and started on my masters degree. I know you’re thinking, “Wow Sav, you’re kicking booty!” Yeah well I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely proud of my accomplishments BUT I’m in that weird post-graduate transition phase where no one wants to hire you because you don’t have experience only how can you have experience when you’re literally in college, raising 3 kids, a military wife, and not to mention in a pandemic! Sorry, I’ve been a little busy. This transition phase has lasted uh like a year. I’m about a month away from writing HIRE YA GIRL on my forehead and walking around Town Center. Even more real than that I have been so angry at God because I have been PRAYING this entire time for him to guide me. Not just any job, but for my calling in life. My purpose for being on this earth-outside of wiping butts. I have dreams, okay. And I’m typically the girl that just joins society, does what I’m supposed to do in life, and be as normal as possible. But the more I’ve been on this self-finding journey I’ve realized that’s not necessarily what I want, nor what I feel like I’m meant to do.
I still have the same intentions with this blog that I did before, but I want to be even bigger than that, I want to do BETTER than that. I want to have the opportunity to stay home with my kids while doing what I love (and paying my bills). I want to make a difference in the community, in this world, and in our kids’ futures. These are big dreams and honestly I’m not too sure what my next move is going to be but I’m working on it and trying to keep the faith. I feel like my blog is a good start to achieving these goals.
You guys can help me by liking and sharing my blogs on social media, following my blogs on my website savtalks.com. Communicate with me- I’m open for advice, to team up if you have a similar dream- Ya know, whatever it is. I hope and pray that this hits home with someone today, I hope this encourages you to find your calling or to find your creative outlet, or follow those big dreams you have.